soul searching

I'd like to believe that I'm here for a reason. Someone said we are like individual cells in a body, each of us performing our unique functions and collectively serving the being as a whole. Therefore, I'd really like to find out the reasons why I'm here. What did the God have given me and what do I have to offer to this world? Arghhhh.........

越看步步惊心就越怕，也可能是这部戏，让我陷入这不安的恐慌中。我不懂。真的好人一个，怎么会为了权力地位，而处心积虑提防这谁那谁。我不喜欢这样的戏。可是，我又喜欢那些演员。所以，我陷入两难，很难抉择该看或该放弃。但是，真的会怕。心寒。难道，神创造这么多人，目的就是为了你争我夺吗？是我入戏太迷了，应该是这样。